What am i gonna be if im no longer here?
I mean.. hmm lately aku post benda2 yang sad.. terrifying apa semua.. and sedih2.
Maybe sebab condition aku.
I mean yaaa..
My whole right part of my body.. at my lung till my waist was hurt. I mean just now i was playing and holding my niece and it was hurt. So much. My lung... its like being press and its become hot by itself.. just the area become hot.. and it was inside.. i can feel it.. totally. Plus im not sweating at all that moment.
Damn aku terus stop.. turunkan budak tu and lari baring atas katil.. macam pelik tiba2 tersungkur jadi aku pura2 main handphone.. sakitt Ya Allah.. ni gara2 batuk aku yang terlalu lama..
Period cycle aku pulak xdtg since Ramadhan haritu.. aku xtau nak cakap mcamana... condition aku totally like... hmmm... then i was kena keep on eat my epilepsi medicine.. and then im keep like getting skinny..
Hmmmm... this is so... so depressing..
And im not ready for final exams..
Yet everything seems so bad.. im just keep resting all the time...
And my family keep warned me.. like jangan tidur lewat.. jangan lupa makan.. jangan penat sangat.. i just dont wanna burden anyone anymore. Sometimes i feel like i can stop all of this..
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