In the earlier morning I just saw my sister and my niece playing around. then I didnt saw my mom, my brother in law and my brother. Then I asked my sister where did they go, my sister said they are sending my dad to the hospital. I just thought Oh maybe he gonna get better since he cough hard those days. Then I fill up my bottle with water for me to bring it to the office, but I do feel something was wrong. Then my mind was keep wandering And then I go to my office like usual. But then I just checked my bag that I left my bottle at home. I was like quite dissapointed with how careless I am..
Half an hour after I get to MRT station at Muzium Negara, My mom called me and she was crying, that was the first cry I ever heard from my mom. I asked her why with my tears dropped too, because I cant stand hearing her crying. then she said "Kakak abah kakak... Dr cakap jantung dia berenti Ya Allah kakak... mak risau ni.. " and I replied "Berhenti...?? Ya Allah kenapa pulak mak... akak balik eh mak ??akak balik tau??" my mom reply " ye balik kak balik..." then I hear her sobbing before she off the calls.
Immediately I take a turn of my transit and I call my baby to inform him... cause I dont know what should I do anymore... and Idk how to think... and I was like.. what is happening... is he just gonna be sick there... is he in coma or what....
Then as I reach home, me and my sister went to the HKL by Grabcar cause my brother in law is at the hospital... i asked my brother in law where is Abah... he said follow him inside...I look around at the bed, all of them have patient, some of them look so tired and critical... I didnt see my Abah at all.. then someone show me at where my 1st brother in law was standing next to a body while reading Yassin... I asked my brother in law, "Mana Abah abang zarul?" he said "Ni....." i just stood a while and just look at the body that already closed well with the Hospital Blanket... I was speechles and Idk what to say, I was like didnt trust it... till I said "Betulke...boleh tengok ke...?" My brother in law slide the layers of the Hospital Blanket that covered him by up to 3 layers...
Then as I saw him was lying there...unbreathing... and with a tie on his head... i am speechles and Im out of my words, i just closed my mouths with my both hands and my tears drop all the way continuosly.... I didnt expect him to go on that day, maybe I just epect he will go the Hospital and be much better... I didnt expect all of this to happen..... I am not mariage yet, how hate he is to us, I saw that after all my sister get married he act to them differently and he can talk well with them, and Im also wished to be in that moment also one day.....
I was speechless...
Idk what to do or what to say, I just follow what my sisters done....
And I follow the Jenazah up untl in the van.... then the van is playing a sound... ayat2 alquran....
As we arrived the masjid... everyone is already there... my baby help to carry the jenazah of my dad and put it at the place where He is going to be bath before being kafan with a white fabric....
The whole day I see everybody was talking and some of them laughing, while I cant say anything at all... I cant even think... but Im never leave my dad alone I keep repeatedly reading yassin to him, My baby also do read yassin to him...
Then we sent him to the grave...to a very nice place... a new place of grave.. but way to far for me who doesnt have a transport...
Thank you to those who helped...Terima kasih.. semoga Allah membalas jasa kalian semua.. and also to my baby, thank you so much..for being by myside...
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