Urm...

I think.. maybe I shouldn't disturb him anymore.. Ive break his heart a lot... makes so many things gone wrong...

Im such a dull.. and idiot..

Hurmmm.....

Its February

Its February. 1 am.

I just did a mistake yesterday.
Im an idiot.
At first I just an attention from him.
Thats all..

I dont have intention to hurt u at all....
I just cant take it when i was being laugh like an idiot...
I know im such a loser girl...
That out of nothing...

And i always make things gone worse...
I always dont know what I want and i create a big trouble...

Its just i always love the person I love..
And i wish at least I can share everything everyday...
Its like a pills to me...
If i dont have it...
It will ruin my mind...
My mind will judging..
Talking alone with myself and somehow idk what else im gonna do...

What is happening to me....

Ya Allah kenapa agaknya aku jd mcmni .. xlarat laaa...
rasa mual semua... nak muntah... lepas makan je rasa nak muntah..
lepastu bukannya sebab makanan ke apa.. tapi sebab hadap benda alah Laptop ni..

tadi aku elok je.. bila aku dah tunggu loading Ai ni lama sangat aku jadi tension...
aku bengang laa dia nak save pun lama gila... nasib baik ar member aku nak blah dah..
aku boleh ar guna pc lepasni.. kalau aku repair pun dah bape riggit plak..

masa tunggu nak save tu berapa lama... bukak benda lain pun hang lepastu mula laa belah kanan otak aku sakit.. berdenyut2.. lepastu aku rasa nak muntah... adehh benci nya aku situation mcmni...
aku nak keje lama kot... xkan sampai bila2 jadi mcamni..

ubat aku ni mcm xda function je... arghh serabut laaa... campak laut lagi baik.. dahla treatment ahritu mahal.. apa aku nak buat ni... asik terbaring kat surau je keje sbb ase nak muntah.. arghh.. ke aku xckup vitamin atau gula ke apa... hmm... masalah laa mcmni...

pg klinik kerajaan lagi lembab masalahnya.. bukannya setakat lembab.. parking pun xder.. buat angin satu badan je kalau pg pun... haihh..