Aku pun ada perasaan ahhh

Bukannya apa...

aku cuma terasa..

memanglah.. aku sepatutnya dah biasa dengan benda2 ni semua..

tapi aku ada hati dan perasaan..

maybe orang boleh buat jokes pasal sickness aku..

Ya.. aku memang ada epilepsi..

atau erti kata lain sawan..

and people will make jokes and makes fun of it..

because of what happen..

saat aku kejang aku meronta2 macamtu..

mulut berbuih..

mata ke atas..

mungkin hanya digelakkan kalau sesiapa ingatkan balik..

even waktu tu panik..

mungkin selepastu akan tetap aku digelakkan..

tambahan adik beradik selalu buat jokes..

bahan aku "budak sawan" atau " budak kejang"

sedangkan waktu tu.. aku je yang rasa betapa peritnya..

aku menegangkan seluruh urat2 saraf aku dari otak sampai seluruh badan..

dan lepastu takda satu urat pun yang xsakit..

seriously its not a joke to me..

its hurt..

seriously..

stop make fun of it..

im having this sickness since 12 years old..

and my brain is abnormal not the way normal people think..

and i have a seizure..

and i have starring spells..

which i have problem in concentration..

in those 3 years at UTM ..

i can count how many times im focused in class..

just a few times.

the rest of it im just starring at anything and thinking deeper.

and today i back home because mom keep asking me when i will back home

and when i back..

i got no mood..

please i wanna get rid all of those things quicker

my head messed upppppp !