Johor

Akhirnya aku menjejakkan jugak kaki ke tanah Johor ni. Sampai hotel dalam pukul 6 lebih dekat pukul 7. Tu pun sebab alu terkejar kejar pergi UTM Skudai nak ambik baju aku. Maunya aku xrisau? Jubah aku belum amik siakk. Aku rasa xda benda yang xmerisaukan seseorang yang dah nak g grad pastu family dia siap kena book kereta siap xda transport. Pastu mak dia siap tempah baju lagi. Tup2 aku xjadi nak convo sebab aku xleh masuk sebab aku xmabik jubah. Aje ke gila do. Aku cuak. Stament mcm bodo jugak sebab cuak benda mcam tu sebab kawan aku punya ayat laaa. Ayat dia lansung xbagi aku sokongan.

Yela aku tau salah aku sebab aku terlepas pandang. Aku xtau kena ambik jubah hari jumaat tu sebab aku busy pikir kerja aku je. Even aku kerja lom wat pape lagi tapi aku penat gak balik keje jalan jauh apa semua lagi. Buat aku jd lupa semua tu. Aaku tanya mmber aku nape xinform aku yang harini dapat jubah sebab aku xpergi raptai. Aku xtau lak dapat jubah masa raptai. Aku mana penah convo aku xtau pun bab2 tu. Diorang cakap aku xbaca instructions lah apa lah. Lnsung xmmbina ayat2. Pastu cakap sabtu semua cuti lah ape lah. Saje je ayat tu.

Lepastu aku xde la bodoh aku check ar yg sabtu ahad tu ada event kat UTM Skudai gak sebab Post graduate dengan Degree pun convo. Aku sure la diorang xtutup. Tidur pun xlena laa aku malam semalam. Mmber smeua xboleh harap. Semua haprak. Masa happy boleh gelak sama2 msa susah buat dunno je buat hal masing2. Taikk.

Last2 aku smpai sana bukak je stor jubah. Pastu boleh je aku amik jubah diorang kasi je aku jubah tu. Pastu ramai n banyak lak jubah tergantung lagi. Pastu diroang cakap kena isi borang lah hape ah. Padahal xde pun aku g dia scan je surat aku.

So lepas settle aku ambik bag jubah n balik hotel. Sejuk beb dlm bilik hotel nih menggigil aku. Ppe pun thanks kat kakak aku sbb uruskan semua ni hehehe :) aku xmampu lagi reply apa2 sebab aku sndiri tunggang terbalik lagi.

Terrible

Day 1

So far this is the most quite terrible thing ever happened I think because I feel like im never expected I will reach this point so far. What point This point that I mean was a point that was quite unexpected and terrible.

Guess what? I am admitted to Hospital on the 2nd day of my Birthday. Oh god, again?? This is just like last year which is im also get fainted near to my birthday. Is this a curse or what ? Seriously I feel its like a curse because the timing happen almost like the same. My boyfriend also said the said thing.

So, its happen when I was just awake from my hurt headache at the Hospital and my head was damn hurt so much.. and I was like gazing everywhere... and wondering where I am... suddenly there is a nurse saw me that I am just awake and she told me "adik.. adik pitam kat tempat kerja tadi.. jadi kami bawa adik kat sini adik kejang... " I just look at her and still blur but my head.. quickly said "ohh god not again" then I was too weak too remember everything.. to do everything so Im just laying there... I was quite scared cause Im just alone.. the one I was thought that moment was my Rifhan.. I missed him and I want him.. I just layed there.. on the bed and there is a water attached to my hand.. they are inserting water into my body slowly..

Then my phone was ringing.. and vibrate.. it was my brother.. he came to see me.. I was wondering why he came and why he was here.. Then i was slowly asked him how he know.. and didnt he worked.. but he told me that my friend called him and told about the emergency that I was fainted and having seizure.. so he runs to the GH..

After that Rifhan came.. he was quite nervous and like.. I saw he was look very panic and shocked maybe for what happened.. Then he stand next to my bed.. bought some bread and Milo for me.. which is and I appreciated it so much... he looks so panic and uneasy... even he laughed a bit and make some jokes.. to make me smile.. Then he hold my hands.. he asked me what happend.. why and how can become that way... and I said Im sorry for not care of myself as what he asked me too.. I am not handling myself well.. breakfast timing and skipped 2 days of my medicine.. But at that moment I just want to calm him not to worry because I am okay.... Rifhan accompany me till afternoon.. then he need to go back because the next day he have to work..

Then my mom came.. she experienced all of these before.. many times.. so she quite calmed than anyone else.. she bought some food for me but that time I dont have any appetite.. but the Hospital also provide some food for us.. as the patient..My sister also came.. and she got time to snapped my picture and shared at the whatsapp group =__=" I feel like a victim.. but who cares I was really tired..

After everyone leaves.. and I am sleeping.. they said they are gonna bring me to the other ward.. which is Neurological ward.. so they brought me there.. and I change ward.. I sleep at GH for 2 days.. dayyumm I never sleep here.. even went here more than a days..

Day 2

I woke up because of some noises from he next bed.. It was a Chinese.. an old nanny.. she like keep shouting at the nurse that she want to change her position of bed because she cant moved.. wow, she was really2 loud.. and noisy.. it makes me cant stand to be there.. even idk what she want.. she was like nagging almost 20 minutes.. when the nurse already layed her down.. she want to sit down.. when they sitted her.. she want to lay down.. I was like.. wtf this nanny.. I know she was quite old and weak.. what else should I say right..

Then infront of me got an indian.. she was pregnant.. maybe she got epilepsy during pregnancy... it was quite dangerous for her.. and I was quite scared if it happen too me too hmm.. Im seriously scared... I dont want this epilepsy ruined my baby..

on the day 2.. I just sit doing nothing lucky me have a magazine for me that I can filled some of my time reading the magazine... then I just waited and keep asked the nurse when I can checked out.. she told me later later later and later...
Until my mom came and bought delicious food for me.. yummy! so tasty! my mom cook Pulut Kuning for me to eat with Rendang Daging.. seriously after that I feel so energized and like wake up from a long sleep hahahaha...

and at 6pm I can at last checkout.. yeahhh.. at last... I am seriously bored.. like damn bored.. not just random bored.. but then I was like being controlled everything.. She is not allowed me to used phone too long and she was keep nagging to me that I didnt manage my food shedule blablabla welll... Err idk.. actually iI kept secret from her that I was skipped 2 days of my medicine.. just to test my ability to lived without it.. but the third day I wat it.. but idk it can still happen..

However its a piece of experience.. wow.. I go through so much..
And thank a lot and much to my hunny that he provide me with so many things.. and be there on time.. and also my mom who bring me food and bought me home..

hmmm...

Tempat Baru.

Dah 2 minggu aku kerja kat tempat baru. Kerjanya memang susah. Memang aku ditawarkan kerja sebagai designer, tapi aku xperlu nak perah idea, sebab bos aku cuma perlukan seseorang yang berkemahiran untuk menggunakan software. Aku belajar guna software baru. Which is Corel Draw. Bila ada customer nak design namecard atau buat Rubber stamp aku kena design mcm apa yg diorang nak. Kat sini semua customer datang pasal rubber stamp dengan namecard je. Rubber stamp kita ada banyak jenis rubber stamp and mcm2 size. Size plak ikut harga. Ada mcm2 jenis aku kena refer buku lagi setakat ni sebab banyak sangat kena belajar. Then Namecard plak boss dah save artwork ribuan company siap ikut folder alphabet lagi. so aku cuma perlu cari nama company lepastu tambah je kalau ada permintaan.

Lepas design aku akan print kertas approval ntuk customer sign menandakan dia dah bersetuju n terus bayar kat counter je. Kalau rubber stamp selalunya esok dah boleh collect tapi kalau express rubber stamp kena tambah 30 ringgit n boleh collect haritu jugak. So kalau korang nak tau kerja aku memang bukan as designer je =__=" designer tu include sekali tukang printing, photocopy, n tukang semua benda ah termasuk buat rubber stamp.

Btw, selama ni semua orang just guna je rubber stamp and xpernah amik tau pun an mcmana benda kecik tuh kita buat? aku dlu pun xpernah amik port tapi aku suka main cop mak aku hahaha. or main cop cikgu aku sebab aku selalu tolong cikgu tanda paper hahaha...

Ermmm tau x susah sebenarnya nak buat benda alah tu. nampak kecik n xberapa nak difikirkan sangat. Tapi susahhh beb sebenarnya. Now aku design, aku buat getah cop tu and aku sendiri yang lekatkan kat cop tu. Perghh memang pengalaman laa benda tu. Mmg aku xpernah terfikir akn buat bnda2 tu. Main dengan getah hari2. Melekit2 tu semua. Step nak buat dia lain kali lah cerita sebab aku malas panjang sangat step dia..

And aku pun dah blaja pasal jenis2 printing, nak print kertas keras ke tebal ke, ivory ke, nak buat maecard punya allignment ke semua aku dah blaja setakat ni. boss aku power jugak laaa sebab dalam busy2 tu dia boleh ajar aku dlm shorter time je. Dia boleh explain mcm2 sampai kepala aku pun berat. Kepala aku dah berat gila 2 minggu ni tambah2 semua benda kena tulis supaya xlupa. Dia dah xnak aku refer dia selalu. Ada 6 jenis printer aku kena ingat n hafal. Aku xboleh sewenang-wenangnya print kat mana2 printer. Kat each printer ada function sendiri and ada toner berlainan. ada yg Toner khas ntuk full color. ada yg black and white sahaja, ada yang untuk namecard n others pun boleh except full color, and ada gak yg paling besar n senang ntuk photocopy n printing.

Pastu dh belajar jugak binding, photocopy, aku dah belajar mcm2 jenis com, yg besar or yg kecik. Nak masukkan dalam com n fully binding semua. Aku dh blajar semua tu hehhe and xderla susah sangat bila dah mahir. cuma ada banyak lagi yang aku belum mahir hehehe. still my book is prepared to jot down new stuff. Tapi yang pasti aku mmg letih gila everyday. And now hari2 kena naik lrt ke Ampang Park office aku tu. pagi2 nampak muka semua org blurrr je hahahhaa. aku pun naik blur dah 2 mggu ni. Yang pasti mata aku makin kabur. hmmmm... not a good thing.

Fine I quit

Okay harini last day aku kat Snif or kitorang panggil Snip sebab aku memang dah tak tahan dah nak kerja kat situ. Aku kerja macam biasa je so far tapi aku bengang sebab boss aku buat perangai dengan aku. Acually happen bila semalam aku argue dengan dia dekat Whatsapp. Yela dia sebok condemn sgt aku balik awal sedangkan aku xde la balik awal sangat. Aku balik awal pun sebab aku rasa mcm dah xda mood pastu kerja aku dah settle.

Dia pulak xhabis2 kacau idop aku pasal kunci opis yang xde kesudahan tu. bengang betul aku. last2 aku bengang aku argue dgn dia and harini aku dtg hantar surat resign n copy data2 aku je. Tension au malas nak kerja dekat situ lagi. Lgipun gaji lambattttt so aku nekad baik aku berenti je. Aku pun malas nak edn up mcmtu asyik menunggu gaji je. Mcam orang gila tunggu gaji. Sedangkan aku patut dibayar dengan punctual sebbab aku bukannya delay kerja pun. Kerja aku semua on time.

Dahala bayar lambat xckup pulak tu. pastu dah mintak balance cakap nak sekalikan dengan gaji July. Skai gaji July pun tak dapat2. penipu punya company. menyakitkan hati je. aku sakit hati gilaaaaaa . taip entry pun bengang aku. blerghhh...... =="

Why worked here so sucks?

Today just like a part of my history I just quit from the work I just interview that i talk about from my last post. Yes I worked just for 2 months. And each day before I dont have time to write any entry about my job and what was being done at work. And I was too comfortable worked there till I never expected the cicumstances that would happen.

The first impression that I was thought after I enter the office is the designed of the office that was so cool and cozy. Like I can smell a relaxing office, to make designing as a career. Forever career. The glass window, the glass meeting room and everywhere is using a nice table and everything seems like from the IKEA catalogue design. I am totally excited to start my work there. Too excited maybe.

After the end of month I didnt get my salary yet. I understand that they are advertising company, sometimes money rolled down, sometimes never roll. and sometimes client delayed payment after the event settled. Plus if the client from a big company even if they delayed no one cares about it and who are you small company to sue them. So, it was june and on 30th June still I didnt get my payment yet me and my friends start to wondering about it. And me too , I just whatsapp my boss asked when I could get my salary. They said on Wednesday. Then Im jut ok.

Then until the 2nd week of July we still waited and hoping for the salary. And its get near to Eid. Ya Allah lucky it was Ramadhan and everyone still can be patient about it. But come on, we need money to work, to eat, to do so much thing, lucky me I still have my savings, my house near from them who use motorcycle, cars, that need fuel. Then we got our salary at the moment we are nearly to Eid and yess our salary that was given wasnt enough. I dont know how they count but 3 of us didnt get enough salary. After Eid holiday we met our boss to complaint and discuss about it. And he already get our deals about our salary that wasnt enough and promise to settle it by that week.

And then you can predict it didnt happen at all. Until it was end of July. We still didnt get our job.
I was quite fed up with it and starting feel not comfortable working there. You know, if ure late get a salary who can be in that situation right ? and u keep begging for money eventhough u are always gave ur artwork, always come to work, didnt even take a leave, its like so shitty you didnt get anything for what you have done. It was so sucked.

An Interview again !

Okay this is not the first time i wrote or post an entry about an interview, but yeah i will post here because its a part of my life step. This time after a week I've been spending my time at home, I came out with an ideas to take a look of any job I could have in the Jobstreet pages.

Yea, I just take a look at it since I thought for me its though to got a job from Jobstreet, maybe the qualification needed was high and they have a higher expectation for their candidates. But why not just trying right? So I'm just updated my resume in the Jobstreet. Just some information that I add and the exact time i worked before. This time I thought maybe the chances is there even a bit at least because Ive added that Ive got the 8 months experience with ADZ which is my old company.

So, the interview begins after my boss Cik Puteri textes me to inform about my interview and she want to see me and my artwork. So i was replying the whatsapp with such a nervous. So much nervous because I didnt expect she will directly whatsapp me like that. I feel like is this  a joke?
Then she said she want me to be at their office at 3.30 pm. Panic, nervous, unprepared and more. Lucky. How lucky I am that Ive did an portfolio most of the day before. I am really have high instinct right? Sure and no doubt.

As I arrived their office at level 3 at this Rampai Business Park. So Im just waited for a call or any information from them. Just sit. Suddenly she came out and gave me a letter to be filled. Then I filled it as what she want.

After a minutes I was get into her office as she asked me to followed her. And I was quite amazed and stopped for a while. Their office is amzing and seems exclusive. I never thought and wonder Im gonna worked in an environment like this. Btw I really loved their decorations. Seriously. And I can see there is so many IKEA's items. Plus, I could recognize either it was IKEA or not. hahahaa...

Of course I am super excited. So I have to control my nervous feeling. If an environment like this what came across my mind was they expect higher level and expert designer. I thought Im not gonna make it. Then after I was explaing I know based on what I learned in the corporate industry and all my experience with ADZ she seems can swallow all of it and can listen and understand. I thought I was useless mumbling or what. Then I keep explaining about my portfolio and sort of it. Then she asked my details which is where I lived blablabla...

Andddd she said she will emailed me my offer letter. AMAIGAD AMAIGAD AMAIGAD ! I am excited an happy for this news. Yeahh and yeahh ALhamdulilah. So much praise to Allah because I really need a job and im out of mood to stayed at this home.

So ! Have a toast for me !!! ;)

The Vow

Im just finished watching The Vow.. Well actually I feel like watching it because of Channing Tatum haha! But now.. Its a regret i didnt watch it earlier because the story is such unique and quite amazing.. But it was a sad story that I wish never ever ever happen in my life timeline.

Well, its a beautiful love story between Paige and Leo. Leo and Paige been married for 5 years and been stayed together maybe more than that. One wonderful day after they just finished their dinner at their favourite's restaurant they caught into accident. An horrible accident where their car is been hit by a truck. During the incident happen their car being crashed with a big impact till Paige head hit the glass of front car. While Leo neck was injured.They have been arouse to the hospital's for treatment.

After a while Leo's wake up earlier and he was heal earlier than Paige. He was worried of his wife. He keep checked on her everyday while Paige still coma's. Leo was scared, panicked and always worried all the time about his wife condition. He keep sit next to her and checked on her.

Its been a while until Paige fully recovered. Then Leo was there with the doctor and Paige slowly opened up her eyes and her eyes gazing everywhere tried to identified where she was. Then she told the doctor her head was hurt. Doctor said it was a normal brain injuries. Then Paige asked the doctor who is also injured in the accident. Then Leo was keep quiet hearing it. He feel shock. Then he asked Paige "what do u mean who else? Don't u know me?" then Paige answered "of course you're my doctor". Leo and the Doctor look each other. Leo sit down next to Paige bench and he said "I'm your husband" with an act to hold Paige hand but Paige pull off her hands. Like a stranger tried to hold her and she look at Leo like nothing. She clearly dont remember about her husband Leo.

Leo feel frustrated. The person he loves the most forgets about him afterall and he feels like he loses everything. He loves Paige so much and he was so terribly sad. He sat down and cried all the way.

But, he didnt give up. He still stay at the Hospital's. Took a good care of Paige even Paige don't remembered anything about him. But he tried to with a hope Paige will remember anything slowly about their happiness before.

Its just I really understand the pain of Leo was having. U know? His own wife that he loves so much, happy each other so much doesnt remember him at all and his own wife memory just remember till she graduated. Like really2 dont remember who is Leo at all. And his wife who cut the bond between her own family for 5 years suddenly get back to them because she doesnt remember why she cut the bond between them. And Leo just being left like that because she still feel insecure. It was totally sad. And Paige family really2 never met Leo and after they met at the Hospital, they dont even like Leo at all. And tried to get rid of Leo from her daughter. I really can feel how Leo feel. Surely he was hurt too much. Like she changed into like that. But he got a lot of patient and go through his life. But i loves the ending where everything that happen between them, Paige like slowly need Leo and get back to him.

Because the one who understand u is the one who you understand too :)