Find Your Own Happiness

"Find Your Own Happiness"

How could he said that to me... 

doesnt he realised that he is my happiness.... doesnt he knew why Im here...? 

I was here not because I am not happy or I dont find happiness anywhere... 

I have it. Its just I am a teenager and no one is a teenager around me..

Doesnt he understand that??? My sister? she already married and she was 34..

My topic with my family is just about the life.. the future.. the financial.. the adult matters.. doesnt he knew why Im easily get mad.. easily get stresss? Bceause all those thing that I was thinking was complicated all the time... with this and that and I was being matured without him around.. What does he know??? He just know how to judge.. And I just end up told everything here.. my blog.. that the only place that I can throw out everything..

and if I talk to her she kept sleeping because she was tired of working. Everyone was tired of working in this house. Even my mom if I disturb her sleep like I want to chatted she just replied a little...

But I always tend to chet and talk with her... because I always love and need her.. and in the end just she is the one who leave here....

and its not i didnt do anything else..

i go to KLCC... i read books at Kinokuniya... I go out with friends...

I was hang out with my sister.. I shopping with my sister... we lunch together...

I visited my mom when she was working... I do household chores.. I was working...

I was gving money to my mom.. I have to do the budget list... Thes so many things in my mind and my routine that he dont even know.. and he dont even know.. and he doesnt need to know if he judge me this way....

As a person who he tought i was need other people symphathy and always need others to create happiness inside me... he was wrong.. I just need one person to make me happy.. and others I dont even mind if they gonna hurt me or not.. I fthey hurt me Im not thinking about it any longer... It would go away after a while... And I know that even I act like I dont care but I actually care... Yes... I always care because I've been gifted with a feeling that i was easily feel people around.. even when I was dont even care...

Like I was doing my job and my officemate being scold for their problems... I still would heard and see it... and remember... and I would asked either they are okay or not.... even if they bad to me... I know Im not that humble or good person but I always have the symphaty towards anyone and I always have the deep feeling inside me to help and to feel....

I was pretty sad.. maybe I really need to find my own happiness am I.........