what do i expect?

7 may ..... the date that i expect i would be happy become the most horrible and pathethic day in my 18 years old life so far !!!!!! at first today is where the keputusan permohona upu akan keluar . n bila check . saya tak dpat . memang harini saya start my day with a long cried . no one know what i feel . when everyone so happy get the result im the one who cried alone on my bed expecting that all of this just a dream . i dont know wether im not good enough to be accept into university ... i do all of this because of i want to make my mom happy.. but i can hear she is a bit dissapointed as i call her and say that i didnt get it.. im so sad .. if i could cry for one whole day i would cry .. because that is the only thing i could do..

hmm.. sedih gila.. kena buat rayuan pulak , and nasib rayuan pun belum tentu lagi.. just told me la yang kena ada basic in art baru bole apply . baru lah aku apply.. ni tak ckp pape pun . and then dahla dalam bornag UPU kena isi smpai 8 choice . mcm apa tah takkan la 1 of of it didnt get at all????? stupid lah . bengang gila . if im just get 1A tu takpe la . aku faham la kenapa aku tak dapt kan . but now teruk sgt ke result aku??  harghh fine !!!!!!!! if that is the one that i could not get . fine.. im just could keep quiet and gone through my life alone ..

gonna be alone after this  .. all friends were gone to further their studies .. maybe result aku mcm sampah .. so be happy jela :)