seriously when u got nothing to do .. u are very near to the one u love n u remember them more than u could expect .. and sometimes i happen non stop . u couldn't stop thingking of them .. its hard to stop it .
i dont know what is happening to me .. all day in the midnight i always cried alone thingking of him . i no he is very tired and he need a tight sleep for tomorrow . i didnt stop him cause i understand him so much . he is a working person . but actually maybe i cant get use to it . maybe dulu2 dia selalu tunggu aku tido dulu and then baru dia tido . dia cerita soo many interesting things till i sleep . and pg2 he will wake up early and wait me get up . it is a wonderfull moment . :) and it still wonderfull to be with him . however it is , it is always bring out happiness .
it just me have to control myself . i have to understand that his life is not just for me . he also have many things to do on his life . i have to learn to accept the faith . im not a school student anymore that just have to think about study and having fun . i have to think of my future . n i know he is thinking further than me . and i? im still like this . berangan2 n terapung2 tanpa tujuan . i have to learn to become a grown up person and wake up from my dream .
i no what i have to do . but , it just i cant fight my own feelings . im too alone when he is not around . befor this 24 houes my time is just to spend with him . laugh and shared everything . he is my life . i cant loses him for only 1 minute .
he's my first one that i cant let go and cant forget forever . i need him so much ...
wake up .. dont be so weak ..
have to start working as soon as possible ..
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