it just happen

harini lecture Assembly Language buat Quiz . kena exchange system . cari EAX, EBX ,VAR1 and everything else . then dia bg number at everyone so that nanti akan jumpa dengan orang yang no sama dengan kita jadi group . so at first feel akward ah cause we dont really get closed although we are classmate , espacially with the 1st intake . although the gap between us just 2 weeks but we need more than 6 months to ge closed . phewww hard is it ? but after that we all do the quiz together baru feel mcm classmate u know ! laugh together all the time do here and there bes gilaaa hahaha , espacially bila diction buat muka comel hahahaha !

then next class C++ bengang je dahlah lecture ajar speed laju like F1 di litar sepang ! pulak dah tu ajar 2 chapter sekaligus , so she extend the class from 2-3.50 become 2-4.30 !! damn my head is getting exploded too many facts been stucked in my head . chapter 3 have 52 slides and chapter 4 have 41 slides . imagine how she did that . i feel like she just mumbling around and just explain it blablablabla like that .

in the same time my cik abang that just received his matrix result told me he just get low marks , and he said if he get 4 flat in the 2nd semester the average will just 3.1 something . imagine if he get low than that ? he afraid he wont get the chance to enter the university . he afraid his mom get mad at him . actually after the upu result is out in May and June 2012 he get the offer from Matriks first and then he get offer from UiTM in Engineering . i ask him to just masuk UiTM because i know him well , i know how far he can do and how he study but he said his dad want him to masuk Matriks , he cant deny his father . He can't againts his father , he never do it otherwise . so he followed his dad request but actually Matriks is very hard for him and the risk is  very high . Maybe it is the only shortcut way to degree but we have to think our own ability . maybe our parent might not understand us as long as they don't sit infront of us everyday and watch how we study . that's is the only way for them to understand us but no parents would do that . they just want we to followed what they want because they want us to make them proud .

but there is many other way to make them proud . and it is not only by followed their request . we must think, its our future not them . 

my cik abang said he gonna discuss about that with his parent , and whatever they gonna say he have to face it wisely . decision is on his hand right now . he having his own opinion to join UTM (my University right now) and ambik Engineering . which mean he will become my junior and start the Diploma from the beginning . i absolutely dont even mind if he become my junior here , as long as he could further his study and finish it faster . and i can bullying him around since he is my junior hahahahaha :p . but im just afraid if my friend saw me with him they will thought im flirting with the junior =__='' . but maybe it is an advantage for me hahahaa i wont miss him again and if i having problem i will directly told him hehehe .

i think how mad our parent are , lama2 they will accept us . Parents is the one who make us wujud in this world, how angry they are espacially our mom , we are 9 months in their tummy . they will forgive us :) and that is not a big mistake by the way , just about the grade . and he already trying his best to achieve it so if he cant we can't force him . i think if his mom heard he said to me just now "Kalau Mak tau mesti mak sedih , mak dah banyak keluarkan belanja untuk kita tapi kita tak dapat result yang baik mesti seharian mak akan marah kita " omg nak mengalir airmata aku , i bet if his mom heard this she will dropping thousand of tears too...

and maybe no one will trying to tease me or hurt my feelings anymore :) huhuhu . hummm thats all for today , i might feel unwell thinking about him , whatever he felt i will felt it too since my feeling is very closed to him .. so closed ...if i could i want to be so closed to him until i could hear his heartbeat ...

Jangan Pernah Sesal , 

Jangan Pernah Menangis,  

Jangan Pernah Mengalah , 

Jangan Pernah Berhenti , 

Jangan Pernah Takut,

Jangan Pernah Berundur,

Jangan Pernah Menyerah,

Jangan Pernah Patah ,

Jangan Pernah Ada Penghujung,

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